This past week I celebrated turning 30 years old in this world. Yes, it's hard to believe to others that don't know me very well that I look like I'm thirty years old. Yes, 30. A tiny life milestone if you say. The last couple of weeks though I tended to look back in my life on the last 30 years of what I've done, how far I've come, what I've learned, and what I can do to make my next 30 years much more memorable.
Like anyone who sees that they are getting older you either embrass it or dread it depending on the age in which you are turning. The weeks leading up to turning 30 I was kind of dreading it. Not the fact that I was getting older but as if I felt I haven't accomplished what I wanted out of life. Now your thinking of me in running terms, well trust me as hard as I had work in distance running I feel pretty much satisfied with what I accomplish on the Cross Country Course, the Track, Tri's, and especially on the roads. I mentioned it has taken me places I never been to and allowed me to compete with some great people whom I call my friends. Over the years, it has made me whom I am but developed my character. If I decide to quit running competitively and just run with the groups and bike a lot I would be very much satisfied with it. But, I still have a couple more competitive years and I'm not done yet. So your asking what is it that makes you dread 30?
Well, a little bit of it is work. The job I'm in some days feels like I can do better that this. I mean I'm not getting cheap pay it's that I know I can do a grade level or two better than my job title but could still make a contribution to my country while working for the federal government in the Department of Defense. Yet, I feel at my age with the experience I'm getting and the education I've had that I can have a chance to move up. Trust me I don't want to be one of those people with a GS-14 or GS-15 those are the higher ups. You make a lot of money but you constantly have no life. Believe me I want to work hard, serve the government, but like many people I have a life outside DSCC (Defense Supply Center Columbus). I think there are those that take there job too seriously and those that don't somehow still work for the government. I can try to go into detail about how much money federal government spends on useless items but I won't. My point in my work life is I'm very happy I have a job when many people don't so far in this economy and I have an opportunity to rise up, learn on the job, and be satisfied so I have to be a little patient with that.
I think the one thing that has turning 30 seem to stress me out more than anything is the bad luck in relationship mostly with the opposite sex. I've seem to have really bad luck in this department. I really don't know what women want from me. I feel as if I'm too nice of a guy for women to date that or they think with work and running I won't have time for them. I dunno, maybe I'm going overboard and not being too patient or trying to hard. However, I have learned to loosen up over the years or maybe God thinks it not my time yet.
Hope you laughed at that one. But, still this has hit me now that I'm 30 not married nor dating anyone consistently right now and I feel for a guy my biological clock is ticking. A little bit of a reason why I got a little more to drink last Saturday besides watching the Buckeyes lose. Maybe I'm going a little overboard with it. I've dated a little bit more the last couple of years but haven't struck gold you way say. It's like I'm trying to find a needle in a haystack but its in a barn filled with more than one haystack.
Yet, last week I've been getting some real good advice from a special woman in my life, my mom of course, that is to keep trusting God and look at the positives and not to focus to much on the negatives.
I also got advice from Catherine my massage therapist, who was a big help in me writing in my Pre Boston Blog.
http://dmoneystwocents.blogspot.com/2011/04/my-blood-sweat-and-tears-literally.html
She thinks I shouldn't worry, but still be more confident in myself and that I'm more than just a runner to everyone.
That's what I've come to realize after celebrating my 30th birthday this past week. With everyone sending me wishes by text or facebook post, or attending my Buckeye Birthday Bash this past weekend, I've come to lean on those people whom I've lean towards the past couple of years. This also ties into the sermon and small group message I've heard as well. From Acts 2 verses 42-47.
They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone was filled with awe at the many wonders and signs performed by the apostles. All the believers were together and had everything in common. They sold property and possessions to give to anyone who had need. Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.
This verse occured after the apostles were converting new Christian believers and how these new believers lived out there lives for God. In a sense I feel I'm surrounded by a great community of different people. People I go to church with and also in my small group we have some interests but a few differences but we all connect together. This is also true for those in my running groups with CRC and the C Bus Pacers. I had gotten to know everyone of them throughout the years and I too rely on their friendship and advice.
So, with these great community of friends I've have developed in Columbus over the years plus the support of my family I know they will be able to have confidence to develop and learn more as a human being. I'll learn to have more fun, be smarter, and enjoy life much better now that I'm a little older. I still keep thinking of this Tim McGraw songs which sums me up!!
I'm D-Money and that's my two cents!!!!!!!!!
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